2 days shy of turning 1 month old, due to my negligence, my baby rolled off the couch and onto the floor, hitting his forehead!
*Gasp* What kind of Mother am I??
It was naturally a very traumatizing experience for both the baby and me. Thankfully, there's nothing boobs cannot solve when you are a nursing mum. My baby even though wailed in the most heartbreaking manner after the fall, settled down to nurse and subsequently fell asleep soon after. I, on the other hand, was shaking the entire time, praying unceasingly for my baby to be okay and also blaming myself for allowing my newborn to suffer his first fall because of my stupidity. Thankfully, baby was fine through the night and when we brought him to the paediatrician the next morning, she assessed him thoroughly and concluded he was fine. What a major relief! The most miraculous part was he didn't suffer any bruising or swelling on his forehead! That saved me a lot of embarrassment since we were holding two days of celebration with lots of family and friends invited to First Month Party 2 days after the fall.
It's easy to talk about this incident now that it's been 5 years. But it took me a really long time to get over it actually. I was guilt-ridden for months and could hardly share it with anybody without tearing as I recalled the incident. I felt like the worst Mom on earth. I felt incompetent and wondered if I was actually fit to be a Mother. These negative emotions and other pains and fatigue contributed to my experience of baby blues.
I've slowly come to realise that even though our babies come in such small and adorable packages, are really much tougher than we think. That's not to say that we could go ahead and drop them to test how hardy they are. But God has really prepared our babies to suffer falls and injuries which can be quite common in their first years as they learn to roll over, crawl, walk, run and jump. Most of the time, if there's a fall, their crying is mainly out of experiencing a fright, much more so than pain.
It's not going to be easy for you to witness your baby's first fall, but I'm afraid it will happen sometime, especially when baby takes her first steps. Just make sure you prepare yourself, do your best to keep the environment safe, gear up the baby with knee and elbow patches if you want. Then when the fall happens, be right there to pick them up and give them kisses on where it hurts.
They will survive. Our hearts are in fact, more fragile than their bodies.
He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. - Isaiah 40:29
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